Winter Sun

This is about three people who hate me, One friend that i feel i'm weighing down, and near the end it's about a girl named maria who i love very much... and i know she feels the same.

V1-
Let the cold water raise your hair
it's too late now for a summer swim
the air is chill to freezing bones
maybe this letter was meant to begin.

"This was all just a near death coincidence"
i spit through the air to convince myself
tomorrow might just make the difference
i'll probably pay for it when i reach hell.

CHORUS-
and you'll never really know what's going on inside my head
you'll never really understand this meaning when it's dead
but it's time i take a mental trip
a vacation to feel the winter with sun
so you can take the time to realize that life's better when i'm gone

V2-
i can't quite figure this out
do you know if this plane will crash
will you bother to find my soul
burnt and bruised beneath the ash

the last time my throat felt fine
it was cracked and bleeding without sound
a rasped attack of the mess i made.
my hearts below freezing under the ground.

CHORUS-
and you'll never really know what's going on inside my head
you'll never really understand this meaning when it's dead
but it's time i take a mental trip
a vacation to feel the winter with sun
so you can take the time to realize that life's better when i'm gone

BRIDGE-
and i'm sorry
but you know it's true
i'm sorry
for not forgiving you
but now i'm in love
with someone new
completely in love
and i'm happy too.

CHORUS-
and you'll never really know what's going on inside my head
you never really understood each moment when i was dead
but it's time i take a mental trip
a vacation to feel the winter sun
i don't worry when i'm taking off, she still loves me when i'm gone

Aftermath

V1-
Hold on to what came from aftermath
The towns and cars are trashed
my head is spinning. Crash!
Attention please! We've got a wreck to solve
When i had given it all.
Just to continue falling.

V2-
Keep close i'm not letting go quite yet.
I won't be second best.
I know to much for this.
So if you'll please hold my heart from where it's torn
Cause if you heard them warn
We're not out the storm yet.

Chorus-
Hold Tight! Good Night!
Don't Forget about me!
Keep Close! I Know!
We can make it through this
storm. And I know you have the will i bet
Don't make me your regret.
You Haven't seen the best of me yet.

V3-
My rain resistence is at it's top
I am ready to rock
with no time on the clock.
The winds contempt is cruel and unkind
but i think that i'll be fine
with your hand next to mine.

Chorus-
Hold Tight! Good Night!
Don't Forget about me!
Keep Close! I Know!
We can make it through this
storm. And I know you have the will i bet
Don't make me your regret.
You Haven't seen the best of me yet.

Chorus-
Hold Tight! Good Night!
Don't Forget about me!
Keep Close! I Know!
We can make it through this
storm. And I know you have the will i bet
Don't make me your regret.
You Haven't seen the best of me yet.

Question Mark

V1-
I am undefined
I see best when i'm blind
and if i fall today
i hope you get outta mind

V2-
I am insecure
i look for hate in things pure
and i've been poisoned
i've been poisoned
i've been poisoned
with no cure.

CHORUS-
How can i tell you what i've become
when you look at me you see no one
i am ready to become
a hero of none.

V3-
I am undefined
I seek things i won't find
and i can't breathe
i can't breathe
i'm not the breathing kind

[chorus]

Bridge-
My name is who
with the question mark
you can see me
and not feel heart
My Name is who
with the question mark
you can see me
and not feel heart
....but it's there

[chorus]

Nobody Cares

Forget what i've said,
nobody cares.
It's raining and the lights are on.
But i'm preparing for amazement.

Knock Knock.

Nobody is home.
A stupid attempt to see humanity.
What a waste of my positive energy,
Nobody Cares.
Their shadows hung around,
dancing on walls,
creating clutter,
they even managed to turn on the lights,
but nobody is home,
and nobody cares.

Behind,
and engine starts with a rattle to intimidate,
I'm caught in the headlights,
but nobody cares.
I know very well what's coming,
but i do not budge,
i will not move a muscle,
.... i don't even really want to.
Because i know now what the deer felt like.
I know
that nobody knows,
and nobody cares,
.... nobody fucking cares.

Roses Blood

V1-
All these people drenched in roses blood
with no hopes or dreams left to hang on
lay melting weakly to the bars and floors
creating dreams of who they were before

V2-
Their teeth chatter forgetting how to quit
How to take the pain that comes with it
No one knows if they'll find love
No one knows if they've had enough

Chorus-
Ah-Oo
Can you help them with something to think of?
Ah-Oo
Can you remove the stain of roses blood?

V3-
Drowning face down in there soul-less tears
Only this could take away their fears
The cold of lonely shivers up the spine
The thought of love a trick of mind

Chorus-
Ah-Oo
Can you help them find what to think of?
Ah-Oo
Can you remove a stain from roses blood?

V4-
All these people Drenched in Roses Blood.
With nobody to be thinking of.
Can somebody show them love?
Or cut them off cause they've had enough?

Hopeless

you'd think now's the time i'd let it go
you'd think i'd learn to lose my pride
you think this year was long enough somehow
to make me lose my mind

and it still haunts the back of my mind
the ghosts of summers supposed to last
it still places memories behind
but i'm still chasing the past

no matter how hard it tries to get away
torturing what's left is my cover
and i'll leave the days i want to stay
i'm just a hopeless something or other

today's the day i leave it all behind
tomorrows the day i regret it
i keep pretending i'm strong enough
but i think i should forget it

no matter how hard it tries to get away
torturing what's left is my cover
and i'll leave the days i want to stay
i'm just a hopeless something or other

and even though i should let it go
i can't just let you walk away
and even though the words you spoke
can't repeat themselves in present day
it's time to show and let you know
it will always be the same

i can't just change

no matter how hard it tries to get away
torturing what's left is my cover
and i'll leave the days i want to stay
i'm just a hopeless something or other

and i'm sorry

Standing Up

When i flipped the pages,
I saw nothing but black and white.
I begged to see some grey areas.

I noted that each character had a face of strain,
of great difficulty,
but never once contempt.

I watched them drown under the stripes.
Each gasp or attack a result in murder.
Over powering the punctuation mark after fear.
But where were thier guns?
thier weapons?
It was only thier action to take a stand that was completely lethal.
They needed nothing.
They were heros.
They only wanted an idea of what they could do....
......if they so pleased.

And even though the odds are always against them.
An idea to stand up.
At all costs.

Heartless Contender

I've been so branded this heartless contender,
the ofender of viscious riddle-less rhyme.
by them, sick and twisted but none-the-less gifted and
ill-witted by their footwork combined.
So leave me tired
or leave me defenseless
leave me with the poetry they never mentioned
as i'm blinded
by the absentminded style of insult to injury she's pretended.
they don't understand who i've really defended.

they've cut me under the weakest circumstances
as she dances around the facts
she'll bury you alive under made up stars beyond the ceiling of frustrating acts.
I've been so branded this heartless contender
but under any point of view i'll pass.
She's lost control
making me feel cold burying the grave where i stand.

But you can save me
from the strangling thats dangling me from the ceiling of my empty room.
for you understand that this heart does contend
but on for you... and only for you.

By strings and chords i'm lifted from this matress
i'm choking on the art i onced breathed
a lovish mix tape all on through never knowing what to do.
she never understood what i wanted her to keep.

I can hardly think about the fall when i can see it from far,
shining it's golden light beyond my window.
by these words i'm sold Autumn is making me feel old
and i'm running with you to no place in particular.

so leave me tired
and leave me defenseless
you knew all along that i really meant this
stop her relentless strikes to my throat
i'm safe here in your arms
but how do you feel?
now that you know this is real?
this heartless contender has taken his kneel.
and will look for you among each star.

and that's how i always want it to be.

Hopelessly Bound

If we were all realists....
the streets of hopeless romantics would be endless.
Searching for the one thing that we as humans need most......

Whether you may believe my thoughts
and semi-twisted inquisitions
child-like theories and opinions
I've got something called hope for this 4 letter word.
it's something to hold
to breathe
sometimes cold
but can relieve
because this feeling is all fed in to one

love is everything like the color white
all colors in one making a brilliant bright
without them all it would be a darkness right?
or is this dreaming...
but when i'm dreaming i've fallen in love
so it can't be darkness with that mysterious light above
giving me something.... someone... to think of
because i'm a realist
i know i can't live without this
i need this
feeling
lately it seems like i'd be nothing
if i weren't hoplessly bound to a four letter word named love

Kissing You

if i had to somehow form
some way
to describe what it's like to kiss you
i'ld say that:

it's like some kind of magnetic engery
feeling something in the air just wanting to pull our lips together

when i feel the fire of your eyes melting me
they seem to know me better than any other eyes
they create this moment in your arms where i feel completely safe
when our faces are just inches away
and i can feel your breath on my face
calming me
warming me
making me know that you have the same thought on your mind
letting my mouth beg to be kissed

i know that this moment
right where we sit
the very earth we are apart of seems to stop
letting us hear the complete utterly beautiful sound of silence
a sound so loud that it could smooth oceans
crumble hills
and shatter the stongest men to completely nothing

.......but it brings two people together
it expresses an emotion so powerful
that the universe itself couldn't stop itself from loving this moment.....

but that's not even describing what it's like to kiss you
that's describing the perfect moments before
sometimes i like that better even
looking deeply in eachothers eyes
noticing the velvet glide of cheek to cheek
that feeling of so much in love

only to be completed by the
unbroken, uninterupted, unvarying, collision of my lips upon yours
that soft touch
that moment where i understand that i am the happiest i have ever been
that exact pinpoint second where i know how much in love with you i really am
and when i know you feel the same
i know that this is perfection
in every way
shape
and form,

just.....


kissing you

Poetry Like Water

It's too bad I'm not witty
It's too bad I can't capture you in a crossfire of metaphors and flowing paragraphs
or that i can't write a sentence
see it's form on paper
and rearrange it's pattern
into some form of streaming liquid to roll off your tongue
through your mind
and echo it's spill along the hallway to your heart
it's to bad i'm not that kind of poet.
That this pencil's river runs with reptition
that i choose to use rhymes
allthough rhymes do not combine to well with my feelings
it's often that my expressions often aren't in full when searching for the correct rythm,
it's often that that fluid motion of
mind to pencil,
heart to hand,
and soul to paper
is less like a river to me and more like rain drops
cut
clear
precise
like a steady drum beat,
but i like your flowing metaphors better
i feel more at peace with the steady tide you've created
it's giving me that feeling
that floating feeling
expressing my buoyancy
by trying to write something so perfect for you
letting loose those indescribible feelings
because i know it's worth everything i can give...
and i feel that everytime i see you i'm less likely to drown
i mean that with your
every modest smile
every knowing glance
or every perfectly unexpected peck or kiss on the cheek
I seem to skim loves surfaces
swimming carelessly
being in love
and honestly
that's not a bad thing at all.