I'll Never Learn

I understand now what you meant
by saying sorry
but it's not my fault it's not my fault if i can't
The words you've held and held
from me
but it's not my fault it's not my fault if i can't

and i know this way it makes it better... someway
just to pretend that i never knew you like i did
someday you might figure out why it went the road it went
But i'll never learn

I'm sure now why it happened
i think
but you can't blame me for being me
now it's hard to let it go
really
but you can't blame me

and i know this way it makes it better... someway
just to pretend that i never knew you like i did
someday you might figure out why it went the road it went
But i'll never learn

it's gone, it's somewhere in my mind,
but i can never find,
what's behind my nose.
If i had to choose
i'd surely lose
all those things
that matter most

and i know this way it makes it better... someway
just to pretend that i never knew you like i did
someday you might figure out why it went the road it went
But i'll never learn

i understand now what you meant
by saying sorry
sometimes it takes some work to be in love.

The Moon Must Get Lonely.

They sit quietly in a circle,
as the time ticks agrily,
echoing it's frustration up the stairwell,
Climbing each of the floorboards with a
Stomp, a Crash, a nudge in the arm
to tell everyone of us to speak what's on our minds.
But we sit silently in a circle,
Completely ignoring how everyone else is,
the third one lays back and begins to sing
a song about stars.
pointing out a constellation or two,
she drifts all our attentions to her.
Enjoying every moment of it...
but she forgets her affection for the moon.
I go to remind her how lonely it must be...
But everyone sits silently in this circle.
I don't want to kill this.
We listen to the third ones song.
The one that we all fell in love with.
If i ever get out of here,
She's coming with me.

Wait Here

I came
To look for answers
Instead I found those lies
The ones
i fell in love with
that made me cross the lines

I held
your hand through all this struggle
As you prayed and prayed and prayed for rain
I can't
pretend to be the driver
I can't pretend it's all the same

but I will wait here for you my love

You whisper
and cry your pain in silence
To break the chills you've held so long
I drag
my toes to you my lover
and keep my sadness in my song

but i will wait here for you my love

You give
me everything i wanted
And hide everything you have
You hope
destruction is the promise
This determination drives me mad.

but i will wait here for you my love

but i will wait here for you my love

Home.

I like your smile when it's suttle,
because than i know that it's mine.
Your secret style behind the blue-green color,
That takes this touch away from time.

The skin on your face fades red,
Without breaking the silence
getting torn by the words unsaid
soundlessly lasting in resonance

I can't make it home, I won't go home this time
Without your hand.
It's the last time, The last time i try.
Before I'm broken again.

It's the way you tell me all's well
without ever possibly knowing
giving that break, that time to dwell.
Bringing me to where i'm going.

I can't make it home, I won't go home this time
Without your hand.
It's the last time, The last time i try.
Before I'm broken again.

We shouldn't be here,
but this is where we know who we are.
We never belong.
We'll hide here together,
That must be home.

I can't make it home, I won't go home this time
Without your hand.
It's the last time, The last time i try.
Before I'm broken again.
Take me to where we don't belong.

Still Breathing

I can't tell the difference between these feelings
I can't tell today
I can't tell the simple things from difficult
I can't tell today
but all that i know is there's someone
all that i know is that someone will look my way

I don't feel any different now that i'm older
I don't feel okay
I don't like pretending i can handle this
I don't like today
but all that i know is there's someone
all that i know is that someone will look my way

and even when were screaming for the things we lost
even when our hearts stop beating
i know that you'll just hold me in your arms and say
that "i'm still breathing
for you"

You think that I'll never be there
You think that i've changed
I was once so worried about trusting
I was once the same
but all that i know is there's someone
all that i know is that someone will look my way

and even when were screaming for the things we lost
even when our hearts stop beating
i know that you'll just hold me in your arms and say
that "i'm still breathing
for you"

and even when were screaming for the things we lost
even when our hearts stop beating
i know that you'll just hold me in your arms and say
that "i'm still breathing
for you"

Just know that i'm breathing
for you.

And. Silence.

And down the sidewalk,
beaneath the trees,

Silence.

As the mist,
and the rain, proclaim
that the flame that once was,
will smolder,
it's passion growing older
along the sewers and sidewalks.

A rain drop, a river, or a tiny shore,
Whatever ever you fathom, muse, or ignore
Just pouring it's guts through the drains of forever more...
and it's all I have:

To hold, To witness, to try to ignite,
the same guilty, nautious feelings that i felt that night
all through the storm.
Before.
Pouring it's insides through the skies of forever more.

And your eyes in this disguise,
that i despise in the rain.
Have saved me from my life,
and taught me through the grave.
I figure i should warn,
before,
you reach the core,
of what's pouring it's blood through these veins...
forever more.

Forever more.
Forever more.
Forever more.

Silence.