Winter Sun

This is about three people who hate me, One friend that i feel i'm weighing down, and near the end it's about a girl named maria who i love very much... and i know she feels the same.

V1-
Let the cold water raise your hair
it's too late now for a summer swim
the air is chill to freezing bones
maybe this letter was meant to begin.

"This was all just a near death coincidence"
i spit through the air to convince myself
tomorrow might just make the difference
i'll probably pay for it when i reach hell.

CHORUS-
and you'll never really know what's going on inside my head
you'll never really understand this meaning when it's dead
but it's time i take a mental trip
a vacation to feel the winter with sun
so you can take the time to realize that life's better when i'm gone

V2-
i can't quite figure this out
do you know if this plane will crash
will you bother to find my soul
burnt and bruised beneath the ash

the last time my throat felt fine
it was cracked and bleeding without sound
a rasped attack of the mess i made.
my hearts below freezing under the ground.

CHORUS-
and you'll never really know what's going on inside my head
you'll never really understand this meaning when it's dead
but it's time i take a mental trip
a vacation to feel the winter with sun
so you can take the time to realize that life's better when i'm gone

BRIDGE-
and i'm sorry
but you know it's true
i'm sorry
for not forgiving you
but now i'm in love
with someone new
completely in love
and i'm happy too.

CHORUS-
and you'll never really know what's going on inside my head
you never really understood each moment when i was dead
but it's time i take a mental trip
a vacation to feel the winter sun
i don't worry when i'm taking off, she still loves me when i'm gone